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Tied noose around my neck.
I'm crying, scared as heck.
Why is thinking an ease?
Shouldn't acting be a breeze?
Wanted to jump, but I call you.
Everyone says "right thing to do."
No matter what I can't die.
Brain just won't let me try.
So many thoughts I've had before,
I can't even count anymore.
I'm tired of playing this game.
Recovery should be my aim.
What to do when you can't flirt?
Standing here kicking the dirt.
I pass a glance then look away.
What am I supposed to say?
Done this before and it was easy.
Just smile; say something cheesy.
This time there's so much rule.
I can't back out if I act a fool,
Because I'm stuck here next to you.
Please tell me what I can do.
You're still in love with another.
I don't know how to recover,
Especially when I'm the same.
I'll just have to play this game.
This is my safety place.
You're not in this space.
Gonna try a treatment new.
See what the brain will do.
Side effects I want no more.
This search is such a chore.
Could be better, could be worse.
Am I stuck with this curse?
I'm trying to get away,
From how I feel everyday.
I'm starting electroconvulsive therapy tomorrow.  I'm not sure how it will affect me.  Hopefully I'm still able to write poems.  I've been an anxious mess since I had to go off my anxiety medication.  That has gotten in the way of writing poems and doing basically everything.  I'll update you as it goes.  They say there's a 90% chance it will help.  I know it's supposed to affect my memory, so hopefully I remember update you.

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I'll give a run down on my life to help you better understand my poems. I have been diagnosed with Psychotic Depression and Anxiety Disorder and am recently getting help for it. I have had another person living in my head, Sam, for many years. I was recently broken up with and I'm having a lot of trouble getting over him. I have a lot of trouble connecting with people and I act like I'm close to them in order to get that companionship, but I don't really care for them. I have a best friend who I talk to about everything and am sleeping with. I'm also pursuing other sexual relationships. So that's what inspires my poems. :)

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