Mask

I put on a mask to hide my face.
I make sure that it leaves no trace.
I want to open up myself and share,
But if I do will you still be there?
Thoughts more twisted than you know.
My self-esteem's extremely low.
Sometimes I have so much fear.
So tough to keep my head clear.
I want to kill myself all the time,
But I just tell you that I'm fine.
Sometimes I want to kill others.
That's something you'll never discover.
And so I keep it hidden inside.
I don't know if it's fear or pride.
This will change your image of me.
You'll run away from what you see.
You'll never look at me the same.
I don't want to play this game.
So I'll keep myself locked away.
It doesn't matter what I want to say.
Keeping up my high wall,
Is the closest to not being me at all.